Suicide

So

I think im gunna come out and say it its my blog so here goes...

K so it went sorta like this

I lost control of my illnesses, myself , my life and my sanity.

I tried committing suicide on the 2 year anniversary of the 1st time if anniversary is the right word?

6th November 2008, 6th November 2010

Anorexia is not a best friend,

its like a choke hold on your life detroying ur body, mind and soul.

I couldn't cope anymore living without any hope.

Hope is the only love of life

If we aint got hope whats left?

The sad misery that we are doomed forever??

Like i said b4 in the words of Paul Smith I can't live my life feeling nervous about tomorrow

I wanted to take my life because it felt right no crying for help just bowing out graciously

right?

Wrong despite my best efforts i didnt win/loose this battle

i fight on, i "stay strong" to hope

me and thee need to reconcile

It made me realise that despite how low i was feeling its not the way out

the only way out i to live

until 3rd time lucky???

xx