Epic Fail!

Well i went to sleep after the post and from bwt 4/5 ish i feel asleep until 10 !!! after the mammoth sleep the hunger pangs kicked in and then i kept tossing and turning i even watched the zone on ITV with QVC cooking utensils specials so they had to demonstrate the items they were selling so they were cooking allsorts. TBH it was kinda like food porn haha
Anyway i finally gets back to sleep at 3 then woke up at 7 n i feel so weak and exhausted still. But i managed a full day fast and i lost bwt 1kg + maybe a bit but...
At about 1200 hours i feel like i was gunna pass out and i opened the sweets im an idiot ano and i am such a twat, fat bastard, arseole im so angry and really shaky coz of the massive sugar rush. But thats life for you theres full of weak oxygen thiefs like me!!!


I think ive made my mind up tho- i cnt cope anymore and 6/11/10 will be the day i commit suicide properly.
So i need to loose as much weight til then mums gunna make me eat tday especially coz i didnt eat yest, its parents evening and im going dancing afterwards. i have 2 options thus are as follows..

1. Make something i.e a sandwich and stash the cunt
2. Pretend to make something and just eat a celery heart that tbh needs eating up O.o.D but then thats extra cals.

OOh decisions decisions fuck fuck fuck why cnt i just be tubed it probs wud be so much easier i dnt want any taste or food in my mouth. Is that so bad??
im so depressed get me out of here!
xx