Dead Alive...

I wish I was her again.
ER xx

Now I see you lying there Like a lilo losing air, air

Wall of arms are you there?

Wow years and years have past feels like eternity since my last confession. I have sinned I have fought I have lost the battle with the taming of my demons. Oh how they torment me. I can'r cope with how they torment me with absolute torture. There's so much despair I can't even comprehend how much I feel the black cloud of absolute fucking shit the dark absolute misery of depression.

I feel like driving into the abyss. How I crave to think and feel nothing. Even after all this time its so fucking disappointing to be here to succumb to the fucking demon depression. I hate my life, I can't think of one good thing its just so beyond repair.

Domestic abuse:

 an incident or pattern of incidents of controlling, coercive, threatening, degrading and violent behaviour, including sexual violence, in the majority of cases by a partner or ex-partner, but also by a family member or carer. It is very common. In the vast majority of cases it is experienced by women and is perpetrated by men.

ER xx