Idk y that i've started to use album names now instead of lyrics i feel so drained so tired so empty to function
...
I didnt complete my 3 day fast , i saw Dr Kelly aka the prick that man annoys the hell outa me psychiatrist my ass!!!! He'll never help me.
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Well its been tough these few days
really tough
arguements,tears,despair and just general shitness
im sick of hearing are u ok u look angry/depressed/miserable
just FUCK OFF!
im so sad
suicidal
i want to buy a knife or razor blades
i wish someone would care
one of these days im just guna walk into the road no looking back and it will hit me
xx
Thursday, 31 March 2011
Monday, 28 March 2011
Friday, 25 March 2011
Come around sundown...
Holding back the tears.
I've loss count of the people who have said i look upset this week.
I've loss count of the people who have said i look upset this week.
I'm juss so tired, so tired of this.
My horoscope in the metro keeps telling me to "live life" but its not my life to live its not the life i want or deserve.
I wish someone could help me take me away from this world, this pain, this feeling.
Even when the blood drips outta me i dont feel anything i jsut feel disgust that i cant even do that properly.
I want to live but idk how at the same time i contemptate suicide everyday.
Hope is fading fast.
The fog has blinded and choked me.
xx
Thursday, 24 March 2011
BRIAN! top marks for not trying...
I didnt eat for 2 days i survived just to be told i was a "fat oaf" by by sister yesterday.
FAT OAF:
1. A particular individual who sits around all day gaining weight, and who is moronic.
2. Someone who is very obese suffers eating problems.
3. An awkward stupid person
I binged yesterday it was horrible to have all that food churning and to feel full after 2 days empty beautiful starvation dizzyness thats what i love that feelin of just about to collapse like really shakey and its scares me sure but i hoped for everything to be taken away me dying like that is perfect but their aint no garantee.
I shuda pushed further its the longest ive gone without any food at all i've done liquid fasts but nothing like that. It's juss so much easier to just completely stop eating than restricting but then comes the flood of when u do it opens up a binge well for me anyway and i tried to purge but im stupid i dont do it properly so it hurts my throat but i dnt wanna do it properly at the same time.
...
Supersize v superskinny has been on tv n ive watched it n all the superskinnys have been eating really crap food but in small portions which is unfair if i did i would gain. It makes me sad tho that they only put on a bit after 3 months.
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Im soo fed up with zainab she just irritates me sometimes its like in a morning there is nothing to our conversations idk its hard to explain but things are annoying atm maybe its me just being a cranky bitch. yep thats probs it.
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Ever since farrah's news ive just been really sad its should have been me i nearly started crying in the library thats how much it upsets me when i think i could have lost u sweetheart. I love u so much.
...
Anyway i ve got a mahoosive too do list i keep forgetting it tho my minds totally on another planet atm. I need to see what the tests were for the bone scan doubt theyl b bad i wish they were. Its it so fucked up to want oesteoperosis? idk i just want a private trophy of my work well my body aint exactly guna b it not after FAT last time she upset me this bad i cut FAT in my arm. I dont wanna go back to school for economics i feel so shit and fed up.
... If any1 reads this can you tell me
1) how do i put a video on here
and
2) how do i change my blog bakground skin thing (bebo skins were the best) ive tried the templates but they are pretty boring u all have such wonderful cool backgrounds where are u finding these from!!! I bet its really obvious and im just a think shit if some1 cud tell me id b v gratetful!
xx
FAT OAF:
1. A particular individual who sits around all day gaining weight, and who is moronic.
2. Someone who is very obese suffers eating problems.
3. An awkward stupid person
I binged yesterday it was horrible to have all that food churning and to feel full after 2 days empty beautiful starvation dizzyness thats what i love that feelin of just about to collapse like really shakey and its scares me sure but i hoped for everything to be taken away me dying like that is perfect but their aint no garantee.
I shuda pushed further its the longest ive gone without any food at all i've done liquid fasts but nothing like that. It's juss so much easier to just completely stop eating than restricting but then comes the flood of when u do it opens up a binge well for me anyway and i tried to purge but im stupid i dont do it properly so it hurts my throat but i dnt wanna do it properly at the same time.
...
Supersize v superskinny has been on tv n ive watched it n all the superskinnys have been eating really crap food but in small portions which is unfair if i did i would gain. It makes me sad tho that they only put on a bit after 3 months.
...
Im soo fed up with zainab she just irritates me sometimes its like in a morning there is nothing to our conversations idk its hard to explain but things are annoying atm maybe its me just being a cranky bitch. yep thats probs it.
...
Ever since farrah's news ive just been really sad its should have been me i nearly started crying in the library thats how much it upsets me when i think i could have lost u sweetheart. I love u so much.
...
Anyway i ve got a mahoosive too do list i keep forgetting it tho my minds totally on another planet atm. I need to see what the tests were for the bone scan doubt theyl b bad i wish they were. Its it so fucked up to want oesteoperosis? idk i just want a private trophy of my work well my body aint exactly guna b it not after FAT last time she upset me this bad i cut FAT in my arm. I dont wanna go back to school for economics i feel so shit and fed up.
... If any1 reads this can you tell me
1) how do i put a video on here
and
2) how do i change my blog bakground skin thing (bebo skins were the best) ive tried the templates but they are pretty boring u all have such wonderful cool backgrounds where are u finding these from!!! I bet its really obvious and im just a think shit if some1 cud tell me id b v gratetful!
xx
Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Reading other peoples blogs makes mine really dull, oppresive and BORING! im v. surprised i have 36 followers :S
Anyhoo i fasted yest and today but i feel a real binge coming on i said in my last post i dont want to eat again and ive stuck to that but i hate craving all the shit food that spiralls and tempts me in my head. I wish i could just live off diet coke and sugar free gum. that would be bliss. :)
This morning walkiing to school me and zainab was talking about how to kill oneself and we listed the ways u can. I ended up coming to the conclusion that i dont have the balls to do any so does that mean i dont really want to die or that i am even more of a fucking waste of space?
I think i know the answer.
Chosen method would have to be umm idk its a cross between suffocating, hanging, jumpin off a fly over and getting run over but that aint really a sure way coz i dnt fancy ending up paralysed thanks. I just want to be dead.
Idk i just really want something quick, painless and sure fire way to complete the deed.
Thinking cap ahoy!
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Opefully HMV has got mi sylvia plath dvd today ima treat myself to a ring from next -£7.50 which is money i shouldnt be spending also coz my last exam is in june i dont get ema for july gutted? MUCH !!! that means im guna av to get a job in the summer to pay for uni :( bad tyms or which i am actually seriously considering is applying for gameshows so i can hopefully win some wonga but im really unlucky.
xx
Anyhoo i fasted yest and today but i feel a real binge coming on i said in my last post i dont want to eat again and ive stuck to that but i hate craving all the shit food that spiralls and tempts me in my head. I wish i could just live off diet coke and sugar free gum. that would be bliss. :)
This morning walkiing to school me and zainab was talking about how to kill oneself and we listed the ways u can. I ended up coming to the conclusion that i dont have the balls to do any so does that mean i dont really want to die or that i am even more of a fucking waste of space?
I think i know the answer.
Chosen method would have to be umm idk its a cross between suffocating, hanging, jumpin off a fly over and getting run over but that aint really a sure way coz i dnt fancy ending up paralysed thanks. I just want to be dead.
Idk i just really want something quick, painless and sure fire way to complete the deed.
Thinking cap ahoy!
...
Opefully HMV has got mi sylvia plath dvd today ima treat myself to a ring from next -£7.50 which is money i shouldnt be spending also coz my last exam is in june i dont get ema for july gutted? MUCH !!! that means im guna av to get a job in the summer to pay for uni :( bad tyms or which i am actually seriously considering is applying for gameshows so i can hopefully win some wonga but im really unlucky.
xx
Monday, 21 March 2011
My time is up...
THE END:
im not suppose to eat dinner, im not suppose to have a tyre of FAT around my stomach, im not suppose to look more pregnant than my actual pregnant sister, im not suppose to weigh more than her, im not suppose to wear my now tight size 8 clothes coz im anorexic right????
I'm fasting today maybe tomorrow maybe forever i want to die. I sat in psychology nearly crying i'm so depressed atm i just cant face the pressure of these next few months so i dont want them to happen i cant cope. I just want to curl up in a ball and die.
- either extremity of something that has length
- the concluding parts of an event or occurrence
- goal: the state of affairs that a plan is intended to achieve and that (when achieved) terminates behavior intended to achieve it; "the ends justify the means"
- put an end to.
im not suppose to eat dinner, im not suppose to have a tyre of FAT around my stomach, im not suppose to look more pregnant than my actual pregnant sister, im not suppose to weigh more than her, im not suppose to wear my now tight size 8 clothes coz im anorexic right????
I'm fasting today maybe tomorrow maybe forever i want to die. I sat in psychology nearly crying i'm so depressed atm i just cant face the pressure of these next few months so i dont want them to happen i cant cope. I just want to curl up in a ball and die.
"Every living creature on earth dies alone"
Sunday, 20 March 2011
I cannot get enogh of her..
I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,
You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Those words are soo true it always makes me cry im crying rite now things are a bit too much rite now. I feel terrible i look terrible and i cant stop wanting to be someone else for this to be over a period of my life to forget and start over. I hate who i am i just wana be somebody better,thinner,stronger,more intellegent,prettier and somebody more worthy of the air that im breathing.
Feel free to turn me off now coz idk if i can make it thru the week it might save you time to give to other people. I dnt want the guilt of it please please please just take me ...
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,
You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,
Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Those words are soo true it always makes me cry im crying rite now things are a bit too much rite now. I feel terrible i look terrible and i cant stop wanting to be someone else for this to be over a period of my life to forget and start over. I hate who i am i just wana be somebody better,thinner,stronger,more intellegent,prettier and somebody more worthy of the air that im breathing.
Feel free to turn me off now coz idk if i can make it thru the week it might save you time to give to other people. I dnt want the guilt of it please please please just take me ...
Friday, 18 March 2011
Monday, 14 March 2011
Sunday, 13 March 2011
DEATH...
I love the feeling when we lift up
watching the world so small below
i love the dreaming when i think of
the safety in the clouds out my window
i wonder what keeps us so high up
could there be a love beneath these wings
if we suddenly fall should i scream out
or keep very quite and cling to my mouth as i'm crying
so frightend of dying
relax yes im trying
this fears got a hold on me
yes, this fears got a hold on me
i love the quite of the night time
when the sun in the deathly sea
i can feel my heart beating as i speed from
then sense of time catching up with me
the sky set out like a pathway
but who decides which path we take
as people drift into a dream world
i close my eyes as my hands shake and when i see a new day
who's driving this anyway
i picture my own grave
cause fears got a hold on me
yes this fears got a hold on me
Floating neither up or down i wonder when i'll hit the ground
well the earth beneath my body shake
and cast your sleeping hearts awake
could it tremble stars from moon light skies
could it drag a tear from your cold eyes
i live on the right side i sleep in the left
thats why everythings got to be love or death
yes this fears got a hold on me.
watching the world so small below
i love the dreaming when i think of
the safety in the clouds out my window
i wonder what keeps us so high up
could there be a love beneath these wings
if we suddenly fall should i scream out
or keep very quite and cling to my mouth as i'm crying
so frightend of dying
relax yes im trying
this fears got a hold on me
yes, this fears got a hold on me
i love the quite of the night time
when the sun in the deathly sea
i can feel my heart beating as i speed from
then sense of time catching up with me
the sky set out like a pathway
but who decides which path we take
as people drift into a dream world
i close my eyes as my hands shake and when i see a new day
who's driving this anyway
i picture my own grave
cause fears got a hold on me
yes this fears got a hold on me
Floating neither up or down i wonder when i'll hit the ground
well the earth beneath my body shake
and cast your sleeping hearts awake
could it tremble stars from moon light skies
could it drag a tear from your cold eyes
i live on the right side i sleep in the left
thats why everythings got to be love or death
yes this fears got a hold on me.
Friday, 11 March 2011
Mother of pearl,gold and indigo...
Results yeaterday i was cacking myself ;
Psychology: 95/100=A
Economics: 89/100=A
Eng. Lit: 70/?=D!!!!
Im so gutted about my D even tho my others are amazing achievements i just cant get outta my head that im such a dissapointment and an idiot!
I think i need to do 2 resits that english and the first unit of economics to try/hope for and A i think im mad how the fuck am i going to do that idk
But after i got my results miss Wright hugged me it was nice i cant believe i got the same as Toseland it a miracle n i didnt even finish the exam! wtf
Anyway getting my results made a desicion the 1 ive been dreading im going to decline leeds IP i cant achieve A levels and do resits in hospital its just impossible im not able/strong/courageous enough.
I rang Jo and she just said sarcastically "aww thats a shame" >:( yeh it is if only if only...
:( im drained i really am i just bought Sylvia Plaths the bell jar cant wait to read it ope its good :)
going to a cafe tomoz with zainab gunna be good ooh ooh im guna av me hair cut aswell mite post a cheeky pic if its ok n i cba lol
its time to just get emersed again i WILL do my A levels even if it kills me !
xxx
Psychology: 95/100=A
Economics: 89/100=A
Eng. Lit: 70/?=D!!!!
Im so gutted about my D even tho my others are amazing achievements i just cant get outta my head that im such a dissapointment and an idiot!
I think i need to do 2 resits that english and the first unit of economics to try/hope for and A i think im mad how the fuck am i going to do that idk
But after i got my results miss Wright hugged me it was nice i cant believe i got the same as Toseland it a miracle n i didnt even finish the exam! wtf
Anyway getting my results made a desicion the 1 ive been dreading im going to decline leeds IP i cant achieve A levels and do resits in hospital its just impossible im not able/strong/courageous enough.
I rang Jo and she just said sarcastically "aww thats a shame" >:( yeh it is if only if only...
:( im drained i really am i just bought Sylvia Plaths the bell jar cant wait to read it ope its good :)
going to a cafe tomoz with zainab gunna be good ooh ooh im guna av me hair cut aswell mite post a cheeky pic if its ok n i cba lol
its time to just get emersed again i WILL do my A levels even if it kills me !
xxx
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
All the magazines they talk about weight loss if i buy those jeans i can look like kate moss...
Lily Allen yest admitted to being bulimic.
I've always loved Lily Allen and i hope she is/has recovered. She is one strong amazing beautiful woman.
<3
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Well its lent and im giving up sweets. :( Had pancakes yesterday tho which were yummy.
...
Its results day tomorrow and i am shitting myself i know ive done really really badly i dnt wanna collect my results im thinking of going at the end of break to the hall so i dont have the humiliation of everyone knowing.
Oh yesterday aswell i got a trophy for being the person who excelled so much coz i got above my predicted grades and £30 whsmith vouchers :D im so happy but i dont deserve it not after my results tomorrow. Ive thought about giving the trophy back coz i dont deserve it and this man who is like a sponsor/represantative of the award from sheffeild hallam uni who was giving out the award came to school to especially give it to me it so surreal.
Anyway what do i get from whsmith? i was thinking of getting Sylvia Paths peom collections but coz Donny is shit they dont have a poetry section :(
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Oh got my braces off last week :D its so nice not to have them on im having my retainers fitted today which im looking forward to NOT! i dont want anything else on my teeth now ive got used to having straight teeth can we juss leave mi mouth alone please???
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Ive been walking home again well on the greenway i mite do it today coz my mum cant afford to pay for dancing this week which really pissed me off. She pisses me off something chronic ! so i need some excercise.
wow my life is boring!
eeks if i get shit grades tomoz if haha-when i get shit grades tomoz im guna drop out and go to leeds ive been avoiding ringing them but tomorrow ill have reached my decision. I am a failure
xx
I've always loved Lily Allen and i hope she is/has recovered. She is one strong amazing beautiful woman.
<3
...
Well its lent and im giving up sweets. :( Had pancakes yesterday tho which were yummy.
Its results day tomorrow and i am shitting myself i know ive done really really badly i dnt wanna collect my results im thinking of going at the end of break to the hall so i dont have the humiliation of everyone knowing.
Oh yesterday aswell i got a trophy for being the person who excelled so much coz i got above my predicted grades and £30 whsmith vouchers :D im so happy but i dont deserve it not after my results tomorrow. Ive thought about giving the trophy back coz i dont deserve it and this man who is like a sponsor/represantative of the award from sheffeild hallam uni who was giving out the award came to school to especially give it to me it so surreal.
Anyway what do i get from whsmith? i was thinking of getting Sylvia Paths peom collections but coz Donny is shit they dont have a poetry section :(
...
Oh got my braces off last week :D its so nice not to have them on im having my retainers fitted today which im looking forward to NOT! i dont want anything else on my teeth now ive got used to having straight teeth can we juss leave mi mouth alone please???
...
Ive been walking home again well on the greenway i mite do it today coz my mum cant afford to pay for dancing this week which really pissed me off. She pisses me off something chronic ! so i need some excercise.
wow my life is boring!
eeks if i get shit grades tomoz if haha-when i get shit grades tomoz im guna drop out and go to leeds ive been avoiding ringing them but tomorrow ill have reached my decision. I am a failure
xx
Saturday, 5 March 2011
Friday, 4 March 2011
AAnd all the lights that light the way are blinding and all the roads that lead us there are winding...
Mmmaybe your guna be the one that saves me??
...
I finally got the courage to speak to miss Wright my psychology teacher about leeds. I'm really relieved and it was ok in the end she says that she thinks the school would do everything they could to accomodate my position if i went in.
So i hope Dr kelly rings me back today.
I dread it so much but it is DECISION TIME.
...
I finally got the courage to speak to miss Wright my psychology teacher about leeds. I'm really relieved and it was ok in the end she says that she thinks the school would do everything they could to accomodate my position if i went in.
So i hope Dr kelly rings me back today.
I dread it so much but it is DECISION TIME.
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Total life forever,we'll never be alone no...
Cant get enough of Foals album i loves it :)
Anyway long time since i posted due to the internet situ but im back in the lib and im guna just update and blog my way thru 54 mins :)
So beginning of the hols went to a vintage fair it was amazing got an owl jumper finally from alice takes a trip but shes changed her name to alice.vintage i liked the other name and plus i love her reworked items i wish i could buy everything she creates shes sooo talented!
Then i had a lazy few days.
Then I went to sheffield on wed with my sister coz i had to have a bone scan :( i was soo nervous but it was a waste of time coz i dont think i have osteoperosis coz they didnt do any more tests n OMG they weighed and checked my height and i was... im too ashamed 48.2kgs clothed and height of 171.5 which is a lie coz im 5'9 measured in other places which have said i am and plus i was binging back then so that put me in a downer :'(
But after that we went to see the black swan has any1 seen it?
its sooo weird i still cant really figure out what happened lol
The on friday i went to meet Aeris in york :D it was amazing to see her agian and she drew me !! the pic is amazing love it im guna frame it i really wish i could be around her all the time but yeh it was good to meet up with her again
On sat i went to london to become a beat ambassador ano this is really stupid as im not recovered and i dont pretend to be. It was kinda inspirational but at the same time i was just too obsessed with comparing myself and seeing a really thin perfect girl and wanting to be as thin as her :(
So yeh that was my half term haha it was kinda like what a kid writes when they get back to school n they write about what they did lol
...
A doctor rang me from leeds on thurs it was a bit of a pisser coz she said that i can go to leeds continue with a levels buit i can only do school work in the evenings and weekends is it possible to do a levels in such a small amount of time eek??? i was suppose to be asking teachers if they would accomodate this but i can get the courage to go and talk to them
i havent told any1 but Aeris i dont know what to do i wanna go in leeds i need help but i dont want to go in then find i cant keep up with school work or find that im not allowed to go home at weekends coz ive not eaten during the week
help?!?!?
...
When i was working at the charity shop two summers ago there was this man i've totally forgotten his name (he was really nice and funny kinda like a bloke bloke lol) who used to bring the bags of clothes that he'd collected from peoples houses and he always used to talk about what i eat coz i told him i was vegetarian coz he was always wanting a biscuit and a brew so i had to go to Iceland( other supermarket are available) and get milk and biscuits and he told me to get what i liked but i was like i dont like biscuits but yeh he kept saying what do u eat n stuff and one day he was like ooh so do u get exited about eating an apple? lol i was like erm idk i just like eating fruit and veg. lol Well the point of this story is that im hopefully getting my braces off tmoz and i cant wait coz i havent been able to bite into an apple for sooo long so tmoz if i get them off (PLEASE PLEASE) im guna walk to olde Morrisons and buy y'no them really crunchy red delicious apples that look like snow white apples haha sooo yes lovely man who i cannot remeber the name of i am getting excited about eating an apple cannot fookin wait :)
xx
Anyway long time since i posted due to the internet situ but im back in the lib and im guna just update and blog my way thru 54 mins :)
So beginning of the hols went to a vintage fair it was amazing got an owl jumper finally from alice takes a trip but shes changed her name to alice.vintage i liked the other name and plus i love her reworked items i wish i could buy everything she creates shes sooo talented!
Then i had a lazy few days.
Then I went to sheffield on wed with my sister coz i had to have a bone scan :( i was soo nervous but it was a waste of time coz i dont think i have osteoperosis coz they didnt do any more tests n OMG they weighed and checked my height and i was... im too ashamed 48.2kgs clothed and height of 171.5 which is a lie coz im 5'9 measured in other places which have said i am and plus i was binging back then so that put me in a downer :'(
But after that we went to see the black swan has any1 seen it?
its sooo weird i still cant really figure out what happened lol
The on friday i went to meet Aeris in york :D it was amazing to see her agian and she drew me !! the pic is amazing love it im guna frame it i really wish i could be around her all the time but yeh it was good to meet up with her again
On sat i went to london to become a beat ambassador ano this is really stupid as im not recovered and i dont pretend to be. It was kinda inspirational but at the same time i was just too obsessed with comparing myself and seeing a really thin perfect girl and wanting to be as thin as her :(
So yeh that was my half term haha it was kinda like what a kid writes when they get back to school n they write about what they did lol
...
A doctor rang me from leeds on thurs it was a bit of a pisser coz she said that i can go to leeds continue with a levels buit i can only do school work in the evenings and weekends is it possible to do a levels in such a small amount of time eek??? i was suppose to be asking teachers if they would accomodate this but i can get the courage to go and talk to them
i havent told any1 but Aeris i dont know what to do i wanna go in leeds i need help but i dont want to go in then find i cant keep up with school work or find that im not allowed to go home at weekends coz ive not eaten during the week
help?!?!?
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When i was working at the charity shop two summers ago there was this man i've totally forgotten his name (he was really nice and funny kinda like a bloke bloke lol) who used to bring the bags of clothes that he'd collected from peoples houses and he always used to talk about what i eat coz i told him i was vegetarian coz he was always wanting a biscuit and a brew so i had to go to Iceland( other supermarket are available) and get milk and biscuits and he told me to get what i liked but i was like i dont like biscuits but yeh he kept saying what do u eat n stuff and one day he was like ooh so do u get exited about eating an apple? lol i was like erm idk i just like eating fruit and veg. lol Well the point of this story is that im hopefully getting my braces off tmoz and i cant wait coz i havent been able to bite into an apple for sooo long so tmoz if i get them off (PLEASE PLEASE) im guna walk to olde Morrisons and buy y'no them really crunchy red delicious apples that look like snow white apples haha sooo yes lovely man who i cannot remeber the name of i am getting excited about eating an apple cannot fookin wait :)
xx
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