Reading other peoples blogs makes mine really dull, oppresive and BORING! im v. surprised i have 36 followers :S
Anyhoo i fasted yest and today but i feel a real binge coming on i said in my last post i dont want to eat again and ive stuck to that but i hate craving all the shit food that spiralls and tempts me in my head. I wish i could just live off diet coke and sugar free gum. that would be bliss. :)
This morning walkiing to school me and zainab was talking about how to kill oneself and we listed the ways u can. I ended up coming to the conclusion that i dont have the balls to do any so does that mean i dont really want to die or that i am even more of a fucking waste of space?
I think i know the answer.
Chosen method would have to be umm idk its a cross between suffocating, hanging, jumpin off a fly over and getting run over but that aint really a sure way coz i dnt fancy ending up paralysed thanks. I just want to be dead.
Idk i just really want something quick, painless and sure fire way to complete the deed.
Thinking cap ahoy!
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Opefully HMV has got mi sylvia plath dvd today ima treat myself to a ring from next -£7.50 which is money i shouldnt be spending also coz my last exam is in june i dont get ema for july gutted? MUCH !!! that means im guna av to get a job in the summer to pay for uni :( bad tyms or which i am actually seriously considering is applying for gameshows so i can hopefully win some wonga but im really unlucky.
xx