Today i got weighed at the surgery 41.6kgs which isn't too bad especially after my binge on xmas. I think my scales at home are bout 2kgs out maybe idk this mroning it said 39 and a bit so yeh tad gutted bwt that i want some digital ones but im outa money :(. I had to have a ECG which was fine but rather embarrasing as she had to put those pads on me and i dont like to be touched. And i had my bloods done this nurse tried to get some but i wouldn't bleed apparently how ironic eh? so she had to call this nurse who pulled the tornoque (idk how to spell it :P) real tight and started slapping my vein n my blood still wouldnt come out n then she stuck the needle in further n i heard it spray out it was horrible.
...
I'm planning on meeting Sarah off PA tomorrow im really nervous like idk what to do coz im always really nervous and shy around ppl i first meet even though we have been speaking for the past 5 months or so. I just hope we get on and talk aswell as we do online u no? i hope it all goes ok especially coz im meeting a peron from the internet. eeks I am excited tho fingers crossed it all goes well :)
xx
Wednesday, 29 December 2010
Monday, 27 December 2010
xmas '10
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| My ugly self |
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| Fizz n her presents :) |
So ive said to myself im not gunna eat until the new year. Ive fasted today. Wednesday i was gunna get weighed av my blood nicked n an ECG but now i dont think i can go i cant take that right now.
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I spent all of my xmas money. On shit. Really what i buy really is. From 8 this morning til 4 i was out. A day wasted not revising. I'm so bad! Im failing at everything atm
xx
Friday, 24 December 2010
Last xmas i gave u my heart but the very next day u gave it away...
Well to be precise its been 2 years since u told me u liked me. U made it the best xmas ive ever had. After waiting all day for Patricks hollow 3 words it was yours that completed me. It's really pathetic that i still hold onto that day, that moment- i bet you dont. I wish we had made a go of it and i wish i never told you about my problems, ano i drove u away. It's really pathetic that everytime i see you i'm wishing inside for you to look me in the eye and to notice i exist to you. I really did and still do have feelings for u Alex. :'(
I ope everyone has a very merry xmas!
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OOOh I've bought a Euro Millions ticket so im praying for winning tonight haha thats a laugh isn't it?! i think i'll just have to endure the day a couple of pennies better off. Bring on the sales thats what i say Topshop, Zara, Accessorize mamas coming!!!! haha
I think i am gunna binge tomorrow i dont want to i'm gunna resist it coz i'm really starting to believe "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" once u've tasted it and feel REALLY guilty about it i just think was that actually worth it?
Anyway i hope i dont get too shitty and stressy!
love you all
xx
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| This was me last xmas. |
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OOOh I've bought a Euro Millions ticket so im praying for winning tonight haha thats a laugh isn't it?! i think i'll just have to endure the day a couple of pennies better off. Bring on the sales thats what i say Topshop, Zara, Accessorize mamas coming!!!! haha
I think i am gunna binge tomorrow i dont want to i'm gunna resist it coz i'm really starting to believe "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" once u've tasted it and feel REALLY guilty about it i just think was that actually worth it?
Anyway i hope i dont get too shitty and stressy!
love you all
xx
Thursday, 23 December 2010
Someone has been watching over me...
hearing my cry,
seeing my pain.
Monday i gets a call from YCED and they had a cancellation so i got my assessment yesterday at 10 :D
It was funny coz i juss text someone saying that i binged and purged and couldn't take this anymore *looking longingly at the knife drawer* when they rang. How amazing is that? Someone up there musta heard me and they aren't ready for me yet <3
Wednesday
So i got up super duper early and got the train and the bus to leeds I didnt think i was guna make it coz the bad weather delayed trains to Leeds but i got there without any problems surprisingly. Oh my mum came with me for "moral support" .
So yeh the assessment was with this young woman doctor/worker i cant for the life of me remember her name thats terrible isnt it?
She weighed me i ended up being 43kgs!!! FUCK where did 3kgs come from??? i hate them industrial scales they always make out im heavier than i am :''''( but i did keep my clothes on so max weight of the 1.5 kgs coz i wear a million layers but it still really upset me seeing that especially today i was just over 39kgs when i weighed myself this morning in my underwear so how does that work? (btw thats a genuine question if someone nos how to calibrate scales please let me know).
So yeh she asked me bwt my background and childhood, didnt tell her anything really even tho it was tough and full of dissapointment coz of him. Then we got onto eating n idk im used to ppl being shocked at how little i eat and how much control and shit i put myself thru but she didnt seem that phased by it. Ano i attention seek alot. I told her bwt some of my rules and just general stuff nothing as desperate as ive been i'm surprised normally i'm like a fountain or really defensive in these situations but idk i just didnt go into much detail really.
Shes guna send me the outcome of the assessment she thinks outpatients is best but i want IP but i really wanna do my a levels but yeh thats how it went.
Thanku Pretty desperate and Fluo for the suppport it means alot. Its so nice to think that some one cares and reads my blog <3 i tried to comment bk but my computer keeps crashing thats why i havent been on here much. Hope u guys are ok.
Over and out :)
xx
seeing my pain.
Monday i gets a call from YCED and they had a cancellation so i got my assessment yesterday at 10 :D
It was funny coz i juss text someone saying that i binged and purged and couldn't take this anymore *looking longingly at the knife drawer* when they rang. How amazing is that? Someone up there musta heard me and they aren't ready for me yet <3
Wednesday
So i got up super duper early and got the train and the bus to leeds I didnt think i was guna make it coz the bad weather delayed trains to Leeds but i got there without any problems surprisingly. Oh my mum came with me for "moral support" .
So yeh the assessment was with this young woman doctor/worker i cant for the life of me remember her name thats terrible isnt it?
She weighed me i ended up being 43kgs!!! FUCK where did 3kgs come from??? i hate them industrial scales they always make out im heavier than i am :''''( but i did keep my clothes on so max weight of the 1.5 kgs coz i wear a million layers but it still really upset me seeing that especially today i was just over 39kgs when i weighed myself this morning in my underwear so how does that work? (btw thats a genuine question if someone nos how to calibrate scales please let me know).
So yeh she asked me bwt my background and childhood, didnt tell her anything really even tho it was tough and full of dissapointment coz of him. Then we got onto eating n idk im used to ppl being shocked at how little i eat and how much control and shit i put myself thru but she didnt seem that phased by it. Ano i attention seek alot. I told her bwt some of my rules and just general stuff nothing as desperate as ive been i'm surprised normally i'm like a fountain or really defensive in these situations but idk i just didnt go into much detail really.
Shes guna send me the outcome of the assessment she thinks outpatients is best but i want IP but i really wanna do my a levels but yeh thats how it went.
Thanku Pretty desperate and Fluo for the suppport it means alot. Its so nice to think that some one cares and reads my blog <3 i tried to comment bk but my computer keeps crashing thats why i havent been on here much. Hope u guys are ok.
Over and out :)
xx
Saturday, 18 December 2010
so today i finally reached the impossible..
i am 40 kgs /88 lbs
bmi = 13.0
bmi = 13.0
This is me. Saturady 18th December 2010. My lowest weight.
Where to now???
I will line my coffin with skin and bones.I will be a feather in a basket. It's too late. No one can save me.
xx
Ignorance is your new best friend...
I might aswell be invisible. No one ever listens.No one ever cares. People just ignore me.
- On here
- pt/pa
- "friends"
- text
- mum
- sisters
- brother
- health professionals
- teachers
- the public
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| I am. |
P.S Remember to forget me ..yeh?
Friday, 17 December 2010
Go on and cry me a river...
Man i dont know where to start - im really really upset and have been crying since i got in. I'll tell u bout why i started crying first then back track. All I know is that i had to come and blog to release these emotions and words whizzing around my head.
I got home bwt 4 and a brown envelpoe was on the back of the sofa, finally my assessment app. from YCED had arrived. I ran upstairs to open it huddled next to the radiator i hadn't even taken my coat and scarf off. Before i opened it i wished my app. was b4 xmas. So steadily i opened the envelope. My heart sank and shattered i bet u could actually hear it. My app is on 13th Jan 2011! I cant wait that long i really cant. I'm amazed i've even waited this long i am literally at breaking point!. So i ran downstairs and rang them to see if i could get an earlier assessment. She said its probably the earliest and i started crying histerically on the phone. Why does no1 believe me when i say no one cares that im in this situation. All she could say was see your GP i was like she doesn't care.
So i rang the GP practice and Dr Thaver is gunna b on leave after mon i sent her a letter last mon to say i need emergency help and if she wanted to weigh me to make the nurse ring me but shes never replied or rang me so = not bothered that im begging her for help. So i've made an app. for Dr singh at 11 on tue i hope he listens but men tend to think its a diet blah blah but its not i need help i dont want to fuck up January exams i cant SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!
I just sat for 30 mins crying on my bedroom floor. I'm a wreck, a sniverling pathetic mess. ;''''(
My mums making dinner and i just want her to find me up here n try n help me i just want someone right now....
....
It was the last day of term the rock mime was funny then me and Zainab went to this cafe The georgian tea rooms its really posh, expensive and new. I didn't know what to have after me and Zainab picked apart the menu saying what was safe n not i got the rasberry n vanilla tea and a sultana scone bwt 200 cals max. and jam.
She had soup, lemonade and a cheesecake it took them ages to bring her her soup she was waiting 1 hour! i had to wait 20mins n when she said she didnt have sweetener i could have cried the tea was manky but the scone was ok. The cheesecake got stuck to a napkin coz they served it on one and so after bringing the cheesecake out b4 her soup it had stuck to the napkin so she got another one. I tell u it was shocking the service in that place. We got away with not paying for a few things coz the till is stupid and no one can work it. So i only paid £3 for my manky tea and Zainab paid £6.55 for her soup and lemonade. Never going back there. Then afterward i got this horrible pain in my stomach i thought i was gunna explode so i had to run to the toilet in frenchgate and u can probs gather what happened next so yeh i went home feeling absolutely ill, then i got stuck in traffic and when i get home i'm faced with no help till jan!
What a SHIT day!
I got home bwt 4 and a brown envelpoe was on the back of the sofa, finally my assessment app. from YCED had arrived. I ran upstairs to open it huddled next to the radiator i hadn't even taken my coat and scarf off. Before i opened it i wished my app. was b4 xmas. So steadily i opened the envelope. My heart sank and shattered i bet u could actually hear it. My app is on 13th Jan 2011! I cant wait that long i really cant. I'm amazed i've even waited this long i am literally at breaking point!. So i ran downstairs and rang them to see if i could get an earlier assessment. She said its probably the earliest and i started crying histerically on the phone. Why does no1 believe me when i say no one cares that im in this situation. All she could say was see your GP i was like she doesn't care.
So i rang the GP practice and Dr Thaver is gunna b on leave after mon i sent her a letter last mon to say i need emergency help and if she wanted to weigh me to make the nurse ring me but shes never replied or rang me so = not bothered that im begging her for help. So i've made an app. for Dr singh at 11 on tue i hope he listens but men tend to think its a diet blah blah but its not i need help i dont want to fuck up January exams i cant SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!
I just sat for 30 mins crying on my bedroom floor. I'm a wreck, a sniverling pathetic mess. ;''''(
My mums making dinner and i just want her to find me up here n try n help me i just want someone right now....
....
It was the last day of term the rock mime was funny then me and Zainab went to this cafe The georgian tea rooms its really posh, expensive and new. I didn't know what to have after me and Zainab picked apart the menu saying what was safe n not i got the rasberry n vanilla tea and a sultana scone bwt 200 cals max. and jam.
She had soup, lemonade and a cheesecake it took them ages to bring her her soup she was waiting 1 hour! i had to wait 20mins n when she said she didnt have sweetener i could have cried the tea was manky but the scone was ok. The cheesecake got stuck to a napkin coz they served it on one and so after bringing the cheesecake out b4 her soup it had stuck to the napkin so she got another one. I tell u it was shocking the service in that place. We got away with not paying for a few things coz the till is stupid and no one can work it. So i only paid £3 for my manky tea and Zainab paid £6.55 for her soup and lemonade. Never going back there. Then afterward i got this horrible pain in my stomach i thought i was gunna explode so i had to run to the toilet in frenchgate and u can probs gather what happened next so yeh i went home feeling absolutely ill, then i got stuck in traffic and when i get home i'm faced with no help till jan!
What a SHIT day!
Thursday, 16 December 2010
I am a pathetic, disgusting, vile human being!
It was presents giving today. I baked zainab some peanut butter flapjacks which btw i didn't even eat a crumb - i was strong. But she made me lemon drizzle cake. This cake is the most beautiful cake ever she makes it perfectly. So what does old fatso here do? eat it in the toilet in her free, on the bus and in my room like a repulsive creature doing something secretive and dirty. She spent her time and effort baking the cake for me and i repay her by stuffing my face and trying and failing to purge (i havent been able to do it ever since the overdose). How fucking disgusting am I that I'd do that?.
For punishment i did 400 sit ups. It's no where near enough to burn it all off so i still feel like shit. Worse of all ive only had a drink today so from the toothbrush rammed down my throat its really hurting. Thanks colgate!!
FML.
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It's getting colder n i dont think i can cope i'm beginning to look like a hunchback and a bulky lady from the millions of layers. PPl keep telling me i look bulky :( = fat.
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It's non- uniforn day tomorrow fuck nos what to wear all my clothes are skimpy haha that aint even a joke not in a slutty way tho dw in a funky kinda way if u get me like long socks /skirts/ leggings/t-shirt dresses/denim hotpants. That kinda thing.:)
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In psychology we've been learning bout inplanted memories from psychologists and i really think thats what steve did to me. I wanna tell my teacher but 1) I dont think ill have time im going to this end of term show 2) It could be awkward 3) I'm not 100% sure he actually did, he did kinda but no like properly idk it's hard to explain without telling u what actually happened in therapy and my life story so yeh...
...
xx
For punishment i did 400 sit ups. It's no where near enough to burn it all off so i still feel like shit. Worse of all ive only had a drink today so from the toothbrush rammed down my throat its really hurting. Thanks colgate!!
FML.
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It's getting colder n i dont think i can cope i'm beginning to look like a hunchback and a bulky lady from the millions of layers. PPl keep telling me i look bulky :( = fat.
....
It's non- uniforn day tomorrow fuck nos what to wear all my clothes are skimpy haha that aint even a joke not in a slutty way tho dw in a funky kinda way if u get me like long socks /skirts/ leggings/t-shirt dresses/denim hotpants. That kinda thing.:)
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In psychology we've been learning bout inplanted memories from psychologists and i really think thats what steve did to me. I wanna tell my teacher but 1) I dont think ill have time im going to this end of term show 2) It could be awkward 3) I'm not 100% sure he actually did, he did kinda but no like properly idk it's hard to explain without telling u what actually happened in therapy and my life story so yeh...
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| For my own enjoyment ;) ope u likey haha |
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
Avoid the obvious...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtmWa--bJqU
Can i have the wanted for xmas please santa?
thanks darling ur a star!!
xx
Can i have the wanted for xmas please santa?
thanks darling ur a star!!
xx
Monday, 13 December 2010
Sometimes you just need to pull yourself together...
...you have no option but to...
...you'll loose your dreams your ticket outta here...
...all because ur slightly underweight striving for something u will never become...
...is there a stop button coz i wanna get off k???
Ok so today i gots a call from YCED and my funding has got thru they'll send me out an app. on wed when they have there little meeting. That could be good and bad. I ope really really bad its b4 xmas.
Ive been really crap at eating these last days ive just gorged on sweets. I'm too scared to weigh myself i dnt wanna gain. I cant face the guilt of that aswell as the depression. It's too much you know? I am loosing all sanity and im loosing my grip on reality i need to do skwl work im behind i dont wanna get stressed from this. Ive already snapped today.
Greg is a tosser i hate him i really dont like him hanging round with us for the want of a better expression i wish he'd fuck off!!! Annoying Twat! arrrgh hes like an irritant i no thats harsh but he stresses me out sumat cronic.
I think today has been ok probs coz of all the sugar im nt that depressed but man theres alota talk bwt just giving up , starving, and dying i know i cnt talk but its like every1s giving in. I hope everyone pulls through ano its easier sed than done man i know that but take every day as it comes and never stop believing u can achieve ur dreams n u still dont "need" to be really thin or really fat. I hope ppl find a happy medium.
i dont know what im trying to say but yeh i hope things get better for u lovely ladies u mean the world to me!
xx
...you'll loose your dreams your ticket outta here...
...all because ur slightly underweight striving for something u will never become...
...is there a stop button coz i wanna get off k???
Ok so today i gots a call from YCED and my funding has got thru they'll send me out an app. on wed when they have there little meeting. That could be good and bad. I ope really really bad its b4 xmas.
Ive been really crap at eating these last days ive just gorged on sweets. I'm too scared to weigh myself i dnt wanna gain. I cant face the guilt of that aswell as the depression. It's too much you know? I am loosing all sanity and im loosing my grip on reality i need to do skwl work im behind i dont wanna get stressed from this. Ive already snapped today.
Greg is a tosser i hate him i really dont like him hanging round with us for the want of a better expression i wish he'd fuck off!!! Annoying Twat! arrrgh hes like an irritant i no thats harsh but he stresses me out sumat cronic.
I think today has been ok probs coz of all the sugar im nt that depressed but man theres alota talk bwt just giving up , starving, and dying i know i cnt talk but its like every1s giving in. I hope everyone pulls through ano its easier sed than done man i know that but take every day as it comes and never stop believing u can achieve ur dreams n u still dont "need" to be really thin or really fat. I hope ppl find a happy medium.
i dont know what im trying to say but yeh i hope things get better for u lovely ladies u mean the world to me!
xx
Saturday, 11 December 2010
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard...
FAST today GONE tomorrow :')
BMI= 13.3
BMI= 13.3
I went christmas shopping today it was good taking my mind off things.
I couldn't get to sleep last night, kept waking up.
I got that feeling.
You know, you remember don't you?
That suicidal feeling.
It's tempting isn't it?
Why haven't you dissapeared yet? Why haven't you collapsed yet? Why are you on your period at your lowest weight?
You should go lower you don't look ill/thin enough to be worthy of the title of anorexia sufferer.
You are a fat failure.
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| I am. |
Friday, 10 December 2010
Time is laying heavy on my heart...
Okay, you've won.
I am 6 and a half stone /41kgs/91 pounds
BMI = 13.4
I've completely lost the will to live.
I've given up hope.
I'm never gunna get into YCED, funding was appenently agreed verbally but not written wtf!!! so its taken 3 weeks to write that down Mick Booth? I despise u. It's ok for u in your management job deciding who gets funding well what about me starving myself to death, trying desperately to hold on so that i can get help escape from the clutches of anorexia??
There is no recovery, recovery doesn't exist i'll never get out alive.
All because u can't confirm and write i've got funding how bloody selfish are u?!
I hate this world and some of the people in it.
I am failed by you, myself, the people around me who are suppose to care. Well why aren't you fucking caring, i bloody need u right now!
It's the first time in ages i've actually cried, i cannot cope with this anymore i need help, i need food, i need you!
...
Im fasting tomorrow im going xmas shopping and to a vintage fair oppourtunity to say i eat a pasty from cooplands ahh that old lie
Thanku for the previous posts comments and its nice to see 20 followers i am actually amazed anyone reads my whinging and whining.
xx
I am 6 and a half stone /41kgs/91 pounds
BMI = 13.4
I've completely lost the will to live.
I've given up hope.
I'm never gunna get into YCED, funding was appenently agreed verbally but not written wtf!!! so its taken 3 weeks to write that down Mick Booth? I despise u. It's ok for u in your management job deciding who gets funding well what about me starving myself to death, trying desperately to hold on so that i can get help escape from the clutches of anorexia??
There is no recovery, recovery doesn't exist i'll never get out alive.
All because u can't confirm and write i've got funding how bloody selfish are u?!
I hate this world and some of the people in it.
I am failed by you, myself, the people around me who are suppose to care. Well why aren't you fucking caring, i bloody need u right now!
It's the first time in ages i've actually cried, i cannot cope with this anymore i need help, i need food, i need you!
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Im fasting tomorrow im going xmas shopping and to a vintage fair oppourtunity to say i eat a pasty from cooplands ahh that old lie
Thanku for the previous posts comments and its nice to see 20 followers i am actually amazed anyone reads my whinging and whining.
xx
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Nobody want to be nameless, aimless, shameless...
I got Dr Thaver involved see if she can get the ball rolling or just palm me some lie about paper work :S Jo never rang me bk after the msg i left on friday i rang her again n left another msg but n one cares.
Maybe if i were nicer someone would care...
Maybe if i were thinner someone would care...
Maybe if i collapsed on the street someone would care...
Maybe if i had the fucking guts to kill myself properly someone would care...
Maybe if i was prettier,smarter, more kind someone would care...
...I am a nobody whose existence is futile i wish i could give up my life so someone else could have a chance to live like a cancer sufferer or something wishing for a life when im wishing mine away.
WHAT A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE I AM
xx
Maybe if i were nicer someone would care...
Maybe if i were thinner someone would care...
Maybe if i collapsed on the street someone would care...
Maybe if i had the fucking guts to kill myself properly someone would care...
Maybe if i was prettier,smarter, more kind someone would care...
...I am a nobody whose existence is futile i wish i could give up my life so someone else could have a chance to live like a cancer sufferer or something wishing for a life when im wishing mine away.
WHAT A FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE I AM
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| Yes they do! |
Sunday, 5 December 2010
The best £1.50 ive ever spent :)
The daily mail (mail on sunday) were giving out free Blondie Parallel lines LP :D shes the best i love Debbie Harry. I wish i was her shes the epitome of rock and roll.
xx
xx
Saturday, 4 December 2010
Friday, 3 December 2010
BLAH, BLAH, BLAH
SHIT day,
Massive cba i came n the computer to do work on Othello but of course i wondered onto here. Idk why but i just feel so depressed like its come over me and consumed me.
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I rang YCED again today they still haven't had confirmation of my funding :( its proper pissing me off, i just wanna get my assessment and go IP i dont want to be here. It's like i'm not living-there is no reality.
As dizzee rascal says "i get up just to go back to sleep" haha im actually quoting dizzee rascal lols
Anyways yeh its beyond hard i just want to go back to normal and the snow to fuck off and i wanna go out. I dont want to be stressed out wi skwl work, i want my fucking room to be finished and i want to not be me for just a day. ..
It's the first time ive actually thought about suicide seriously since that day.
I'm not coping i just want someone at leeds to just help me it takes years for anyone to actually do owt. It's like get ur fucking arse in gear n help me. I'm loosing here.
I want to be dead please!!!
xxx
- hot chocolate n toast=100cals
- 2 satsumas
- 2rivitas=100cals
- carrot
Massive cba i came n the computer to do work on Othello but of course i wondered onto here. Idk why but i just feel so depressed like its come over me and consumed me.
...
I rang YCED again today they still haven't had confirmation of my funding :( its proper pissing me off, i just wanna get my assessment and go IP i dont want to be here. It's like i'm not living-there is no reality.
As dizzee rascal says "i get up just to go back to sleep" haha im actually quoting dizzee rascal lols
Anyways yeh its beyond hard i just want to go back to normal and the snow to fuck off and i wanna go out. I dont want to be stressed out wi skwl work, i want my fucking room to be finished and i want to not be me for just a day. ..
It's the first time ive actually thought about suicide seriously since that day.
I'm not coping i just want someone at leeds to just help me it takes years for anyone to actually do owt. It's like get ur fucking arse in gear n help me. I'm loosing here.
I want to be dead please!!!
xxx
Thursday, 2 December 2010
All time love, nothing else is good enough
So this morning i was just a smidge over 42kgs :) but i wasn't that happy i need to be 40 40 god damn it!!!
-walking in snow carrying shopping
FUCKFUCKFUCK!!!
So what did i do today i eat like a fat twat! thats what i did!
- Hot chocolate n an apple-75 cals
- Sultanas-50ish?
- 2 rivitas -90cals
- sweets- easily 650 :'(
-walking in snow carrying shopping
FUCKFUCKFUCK!!!
This is soul destroying.
x
Wednesday, 1 December 2010
Relapse, Rehab, Recovery
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
... I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road.
Eminem what a BABE!!
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
... I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road.
Eminem what a BABE!!
xx
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