Go on and cry me a river...

Man i dont know where to start - im really really upset and have been crying since i got in. I'll tell u bout why i started crying first then back track. All I know is that i had to come and blog to release these emotions and words whizzing around my head.

I got home bwt 4 and a brown envelpoe was on the back of the sofa, finally my assessment app. from YCED had arrived. I ran upstairs to open it huddled next to the radiator i hadn't even taken my coat and scarf off. Before i opened it i wished my app. was b4 xmas. So steadily i opened the envelope. My heart sank and shattered i bet u could actually hear it. My app is on 13th Jan 2011! I cant wait that long i really cant. I'm amazed i've even waited this long i am literally at breaking point!. So i ran downstairs and rang them to see if i could get an earlier assessment. She said its probably the earliest and i started crying histerically on the phone. Why does no1 believe me when i say no one cares that im in this situation. All she could say was see your GP i was like she doesn't care.
So i rang the GP practice and Dr Thaver is gunna b on leave after mon i sent her a letter last mon to say i need emergency help and if she wanted to weigh me to make the nurse ring me but shes never replied or rang me so = not bothered that im begging her for help. So i've made an app. for Dr singh at 11 on tue i hope he listens but men tend to think its a diet blah blah but its not i need help i dont want to fuck up January exams i cant SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!
I just sat for 30 mins crying on my bedroom floor. I'm a wreck, a sniverling pathetic mess. ;''''(
My mums making dinner and i just want her to find me up here n try n help me i just want someone right now....

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It was the last day of term the rock mime was funny then me and Zainab went to this cafe The georgian tea rooms its really posh, expensive and new. I didn't know what to have after me and Zainab picked apart the menu saying what was safe n not i got the rasberry n vanilla tea and a sultana scone bwt 200 cals max. and jam.
She had soup, lemonade and a cheesecake it took them ages to bring her her soup she was waiting 1 hour! i had to wait 20mins n when she said she didnt have sweetener i could have cried the tea was manky but the scone was ok. The cheesecake got stuck to a napkin coz they served it on one and so after bringing the cheesecake out b4 her soup it had stuck to the napkin so she got another one. I tell u it was shocking the service in that place. We got away with not paying for a few things coz the till is stupid and no one can work it. So i only paid £3 for my manky tea and Zainab paid £6.55 for her soup and lemonade. Never going back there. Then afterward i got this horrible pain in my stomach i thought i was gunna explode so i had to run to the toilet in frenchgate and u can probs gather what happened next so yeh i went home feeling absolutely ill, then i got stuck in traffic and when i get home i'm faced with no help till jan!
What a SHIT day!