...you have no option but to...
...you'll loose your dreams your ticket outta here...
...all because ur slightly underweight striving for something u will never become...
...is there a stop button coz i wanna get off k???
Ok so today i gots a call from YCED and my funding has got thru they'll send me out an app. on wed when they have there little meeting. That could be good and bad. I ope really really bad its b4 xmas.
Ive been really crap at eating these last days ive just gorged on sweets. I'm too scared to weigh myself i dnt wanna gain. I cant face the guilt of that aswell as the depression. It's too much you know? I am loosing all sanity and im loosing my grip on reality i need to do skwl work im behind i dont wanna get stressed from this. Ive already snapped today.
Greg is a tosser i hate him i really dont like him hanging round with us for the want of a better expression i wish he'd fuck off!!! Annoying Twat! arrrgh hes like an irritant i no thats harsh but he stresses me out sumat cronic.
I think today has been ok probs coz of all the sugar im nt that depressed but man theres alota talk bwt just giving up , starving, and dying i know i cnt talk but its like every1s giving in. I hope everyone pulls through ano its easier sed than done man i know that but take every day as it comes and never stop believing u can achieve ur dreams n u still dont "need" to be really thin or really fat. I hope ppl find a happy medium.
i dont know what im trying to say but yeh i hope things get better for u lovely ladies u mean the world to me!
xx
i'm happy for you that you have that funding, hope the things will get better :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you pull through too, pretty lady.
ReplyDeleteis the funding for ip treatment? xx
thanks guys :)
ReplyDeleten yep it is but im guna hopefully just be a part timer well trying to blag that like i just wanna go in the weekend coz i need 2 b in skwl n i hate IP it drives u crazy n i get too caught up in life there u do actually bcome institutionalised
xx