I was so close yesterday to giving up and to quit my job right until I saw the actual owner in instead of the assistant managers/manager. Great. Least next week I only have two shifts but still it panics me every time I'm in that restaurant. It literally scares the shit outta me and I cant cope. But I can't give it any more head space. I NEED to do work today!! Then I am going to a friends house for tea. Not like I'm 8 or something just so I can actually speak to someone today.
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I'm finding that I am questioning everything again like why am I here at uni doing something I'm beginning to hate. I can't do anything right any more. Well did I even do anything right?! nope probs not. I just feel so so lost and it's tearing me apart. Someone came up to me shopping yesterday and asked if I was upset. I can't fake a smile any more.
All my deep sadness,
ER
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I'm sorry to hear you're still struggling with your new job so much. If it makes you panic so badly, maybe it's worth looking for other jobs. It just sounds horrible :(
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel less lost soon. I feel the same, like I'm floating around and don't belong anywhere. Things have to get better, they just have to.
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It is horrible but I'm the shittest person to pluck up the courage and stand up for myself
Deletethanks for the support hope things get better for u too babe
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