when people say you cant take the t off!...

So confused right now.
I just want to stop, rewind or fast forward. I just dont want to live in the present.
Fuck knows.
I know I've gotta do something but i just dont know.
I went to the docs today complete waste of time. I dnt wanna go back to leeds.
I dont know whats happening with student finance either one minute they say they wont pay next year then today they say they will??
i have no idea anymore.
I really need to talk to someone tbh. Someone just listen.
:'(
I'm sorry. :S
xx