Nothing, nothing, nothing...

I'm really over thinking things atm. Someone said I overreact maybe shes right.Apparently ppl come from troll face ru blog to me so looks like I am ? lol Its a proper weird blog has any1 else seen it or have come from there to my blog???
Anyway its pissed me off. wanner make me feel even more shit
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I keep doubting myself. Rosie txt me yest saying that she was going bop. How I miss uni. I just wanna be happy. But I  dont deserve it. I should be 6 feet under right now. I'm home alone this morning, a good oppourtunity to go? My mum n my sis come back to find me overdosed? IDK If only I could get a gun I'd shoot myself. Guess thats kinda quick, probably painful for a second then its over. All over. I am not bulletproof.
All I know right now as I lie in bed cba to move looking up at my mouldy ceiling not wanting 2pm to come coz of shit work crying, I just want to die. I wish someone would kill me. like you hear about people getting murdered etc. why cant that be me? I wouldn't be bothered. ID BE GLAD.
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I feel really alone like friends have just deserted me or they have other things going on.. wish I could spend more time with them. I miss every single one of them. Just to keep me sane.
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I'm trying to comment on your lovely blogs if im not following any 77 of you let me no nd I will. :)
lots of love
troll face
xx