In uni we had to be put into groups me and this other girl got paired with boys we had to style a shoot to the song above.
I suggested a superhero theme.
I was chosen to model as I had a leotard and leggings and high tops.
Disaster.
let the girl do my make-up she did it wrong.
I looked stupid I'm ugly I cant model!
It was horrible. I looked hideous on camera.
I was so tempted whenever I'm in class to run to the toilet start crying and phone my mum telling her I cant do it I was stupid to even think I could do this full time. I wont achieve anything with my life.
I haven't been eating I'm so nervous!
Yet I've just binged on a pasta bowl and a pastry but its the only thing I've eat today but its still disgusting!
I just want the ground to swallow me up?die in my sleep.
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I'm thinking of deleting all my thinspo pics, images of depression and tumblrs and just follow style blogs. Its too distracting. :( Has anyone got any good style blogs?
Fuck everything!!!
ER
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