I mean the work has been fun but just the amount you have to do is overwhelming.
Lee texted me yesterday.
He was on about coming today but I said if you just want sex don't come I don't want to be used.
Needless to say he never text me back after that.
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I'm trying to access my online banking but I've froze myself out. God knows how ffs!! I think I've had fraud on my account or something damn halls internet honestly if I have no money in there I dunno what the hell I'd do.
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Just depression and the pills are sucking all the life out of me. I sleep most of the day well I just lie in bed because I'm so exhausted. Surely there is something wrong with me. Like I should be able to get out of bed in a morning and do all the normal things others do without after half an hour think I'm too tired to carry on and just crawl back into bed.
I would give anything right now to just go back home and stay in bed with no job, no money, nothing. I just don't want to live any more. I just hate who I am, the clothes I wear, the things I do. I just can't deal with every day life. I didn't wash for four days. I just couldn't. I know it's disgusting but this overwhelming feeling of sadness paralyses me.
I know you all think shut up and just get on with it but I can't.
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| This is where I am going... |
All my love
ER
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Huni.. I am so so sorry you are feeling like this.. I wish there was something I could do, please keep that pretty head of yours up.. <3
ReplyDeleteIf you wouldnt mind hun, could you drop your email on a comment on my blog..? I would do the same for you here but it shows the comment straight away.. Just that I would love to talk to you if thats ok..
Much love xx
i sent u my email pls dnt display it
Deletehope to hear frm u soon
much love
<3
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Sweetie I am NOT thinking shut up and get on with your life at all. I am so sorry that things are so bad for you right now. your pain breaks my heart. And as for Lee... I am so sorry :/
ReplyDeletePride. Strength. Courage
~TinyRose
thank u
Deleteur so kind
dont be sorry i deserve to feel like this saddness is all i know
i ended up arguing with lee n he never came but at night in bed i really wish he did come just so i could snuggle with him even if it means having sex with him i just dont want to be alone
:'(
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No one is thinking shut up :) We all want to hear, to get everything off your chest! Have you gotten my any of my txts??? :( I love you xxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteno babe i havent :(
Deleteill private msg u my number on here
maybe u havent got my new number? idk
i wish i cud write about good things in my life instead its so pathetic like last night i went to bed at half 6 after eating chinese and other binge material :( so disgusting
i hope ur ok
i love u
I wish I could stay in bed too but I'd probably forget I'm alive and that'd be.. idk crazy. I'm crazy. Hang in there you are loved<3
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I cant tell you how many times I've locked my damn bank account! Hang in there.. I honestly think we all wish we could just stay in bed and let our lives waste us by! Sounds like a dream come true. An easy escape! Stay Strong!!!! xxxx <3
ReplyDeleteill try
Deletethanku for commenting honey
much love
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