Saturday, 1 February 2014

Together were gonna make history, Why would you wanna be else where? ...

If I didnt have depression I wouldn't be where I am now.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have wanted to kill myself a million times over.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have been so obessed with torturing my body with blades and burns.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have wanted to starve myself or watch my body eat itself.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have had a breakdown at uni.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have quit uni.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have applied again to run 200 miles away from home.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't hate my existence.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have to live in this prison at uni.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have no idea who the hell I was or who I wanted to be what job I wanted to fulfill.
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If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have met the most amazing people.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have learnt the important things I have in life.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't have fell in love.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't be able to make a difference to peoples lives with campaigning about depression awareness.
If I didn't have depression I wouldn't be where I am now.


All my love,
ER
xx

5 comments:

  1. I immediately started thinking of good reasons, which I'm glad to see you ended with a few :]
    There's always something positive to be found, don't forget to search for it no matter how apperent the bad is.
    Love you hon, always xx

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    1. i agree its had to see the positives but at least i saw some
      love you xxx

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  2. Beautifully written, and very true. If we hadn't been touched by mental illness, we wouldn't be who we are now, for better and for worse.
    xx

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